Mi Sirena
Poema: @EstrellaGuancheCanaria
Voz y Fotos: @CharoGosp
Modelo: @when.we.are.vast
Logo creation: @Sean Cavill2024
Mi Sirena:
Ya no te veo por estos parajes,
ni tenaz, ni deslumbrante.
Moviéndote como una sirena,
cegadora y acongojante.
¡Ven! ¡Acércate!
Quiero verte a la luz que nos brindan las estrellas.
Eres una ninfa marina, misteriosa, oculta, divina, eterna.
Con humildad pido, que esta noche no se acabe nunca.
Que la luna llena no pare de alumbrar tu belleza,
mi sombra eterna, que solo desea verte una vez más.
Tormento
Tormento
Del silencio oigo los chillidos,
del dolor ahogante y maldecido
que me despierta antes del amanecer con gemidos y con aullidos.
Dolor que rompes mi mente con ladrillos rotos de la arrogancia.
Te escucho. Pero con poca atención. Porque ya no te tengo compasión,
ni tu llanto me revienta a estas horas tan tempranas, la amargura interna que me roba el corazón.
El tormento ahora es más profundo,
ya que es aquel dolor de huellas impunes, de años pasados… risueños,
y memorias que no se olvidan.
El sufrimiento auténtico está dentro, inerte a la realidad cotidiana,
al mundo material que nos consume diariamente,
ya que el vaivén de la vida es el saber que tu propia esencia es tú verdad verdadera.
Y aunque el humo y las nubes de los pensamientos vuelen como golondrinas anunciando su llegada,
tú siempre sabrás que tu profundidad está marcada por el ser que eres tú.
– Autor: @estrellaguanchecanaria
– Voz y Fotos: @charogosp
– Logo creation ©Sean Cavill 2024
Surgery-Failed Shunt
Update on my May VA shunt surgery. It has barely been six months and this new shunt has failed again. My body seems to be in the small group that loves obstructing the end of the tubing not allowing the free flow of intracranial fluid.
It is really difficult to hear the news yet again. But all I can do is look for new alternatives and keep on moving forward.
Lumbar Puncture Procedure, December 2023
After yet another Lumbar Puncture procedure for IIH, results show that the VA shunt placed during the May surgery is not functioning correctly and further procedures are required. These news have been difficult to take. Please join me in a discussion of the present situation.
The Return
After a hiatus, I have decided to share with you not only the joy of ‘getting better’ but also the bumps on the road and the fall backs. Here I am again to give anecdotes and stories that may make you laugh, think, or perhaps even shed a tear. As always, many hugs to all of you!
IIH: Cough
My coughing attacks continue and getting worse. This saga is becoming a real issue and one that was completely unexpected and leaving specialists speechless. I am truly being tested physically and mentally. An interesting phase in my life and yet another outcome of a VA shunt that was completely surprising to me.
IIH: Feeling Better!!
After a difficult VA shunt surgery, recovery has been arduous. With an accidental nicked nerve in my throat during the operation I am having a hard time speaking and swallowing. Coughing has been developing which is causing quite a struggle. But all and all I am so happy to say that I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am still living with this insidious condition: IIH, but better than before!
Una Respiración
Hoy estoy pidiendo 1 respiración dedicada a mi dolor crónico diario. Se practica en muchas tradiciones, en este caso se atribuye al Budismo. Algunos llaman a esta práctica Tonglen. ¡Siempre agradecida!
One Breath
The Buddhist practice of Tonglen has been long practiced for the aid of suffering for one person and for the world. Here I ask for one breath to help me in my continued suffering. Thank you!